it used to be us and them and you and me
world, where i am drowning i sink so low
got back chinese o's today in the auditorium. it was super scary. ah! if getting back one paper is so freaky already, i dont think i can get back all the papers two yrs later. anyway i got a b3. was kinda hoping for an a2 though. i was thinking that b3 should be okay already cos it's like expected. but it's not good. and now that i really sit down and think, i dont think b3 is that alright anymore. i think i'm actually quite disappointed with my results. i dont know.
and now i think this b3 is actually a wake-up call. if i hav gotten an a, i dont think i will be freaking over all the times i've wasted. i've been slacking for dont know how long. and i really need to buck up. seriously. but it's a lot easier said than done. it's hard to get started. but i really wanna do well. i mean of cos la. everyone wants to do well. but. sigh. i dont wanna regret only after everything. how. b3 is a wake-up call. but am i taking it seriously. i dont know. i really dont know. it's no point saying all these if i'm not gonna do anything about it.
i dont wanna be a 2oo6sec4 in 2oo7, sitting alone at the stairs looking at her results slip for very long.
and what if by the end of these 4yrs, i hav no place to go. okay so even if i hav somewhere to go, where should i go. jc is of cos better la. but there's still the a's. and wad if i dont do well for the a levels? if it's poly, after around 3yrs, i will have a diploma cert. it's better than an o levels certificate right. that's why i dont know where i wanna go. it's like by now most of the people already hav an aim. a place where they hope to go. but i'm still aimless! i dont have something definite to reach for. and i cant sit down and tell myself that i really really wanna get into this school and to get into this school i really have to work very very hard. cos i dont even know where to go in the first place.
for what it's worth it was worth all the while
went for piano lesson after school. and i admire my piano teacher a lot. she's really good with the piano and she is teaching something that she really likes. i can tell from the way she speaks that she really really feels very happy when a student passes the piano exams. when she sees that the student has reached the standard that the student can attain. i could tell from her enthusiasm. she's very good. and it helps that she is so humorous and everything. she talks a lot so the lesson's not boring. i used to dread piano lessons a lot. but now i look forward to the next lesson i have with her. she's cool :D anyone wants to learn how to play the piano?
yay there's church tmr. i cant wait! (:
Friday, February 10, 2006 @ 8:58 pm